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Wednesday 29 September 2010

The City

I love this city. I love my halls, the girls I live with, the university. I love it's bustle, but the fact it's never so packed you can't breate. I love the way you can walk places, and along the way I can see beautiful old structures right alongside the new. I love the diversity here, the accents and the feel of a city. I love that there are great churches around. i love that 15 mins on a train and you can be in a village with a canal, locks and hills.

But there are two things I don't like. One is the rain. Because it seriously does rain ALL the time. And the second is the strange sensation I get from seeing so many faces-and the fact that occasionaly I get glimpses of Annie. Her scarf, her hair or her laugh, and I freeze. My heart starts to pound and it hits me again- that cold hard moment where my conscious mind realises it can't be Annie, because Annie died. And in that second it feels like it's happening again and I realise I'm still learning to live with the reality of it. A friend told me the other day I was brave, and I dismissed him, but I think that there is a little bit of bravery there, deep down- a part that makes a decision each morning that today will be ok.

So it's in those moments that I turn to God, he who is so brave. The one certainty I have is that he will always be with me, no matter how many miles from home I am. I know he surrounds me with people who care and people who love me. So it's ok.
And above all I know he's going to ensure I have a great time in Manchester, that he's placed me here for a purpose and that I'll have a wonderful 3 years. x
Posted by Laura x at 05:13